Silence . I really enjoy silence. Every now and then I turn off the radio and CD player and listen. I listen to the sound of the wind, the bumps on the ground, the sound of the engine. Oddly enough, the sound of the wind in my ears as I fell to the Earth comes to mind. = )

Friends are over at the moment. We just make a trek through the "Rainforest Cafe" and now we play! Game on! —————————————————————————————————— car!

Now I sit in my own silence. A stillness that’s welcoming and comforting. Silence of the mind, no not yet. I doubt that will happen anytime soon. Oh whoa is me. Oh such… to use a great friends’ term ‘drama’. I feel that some iolationism, even if for only a few moments in my life/day, is going to help me get through my present situations - emotionally and physcially. I’m not dying or anything you greedy bastards. I’m just coping with things that I am, ha!, fortunate enough to have to ‘deal with’.

Yes I laughed at that. Think about this if you will… You are sitting at home/work/stuck on a train/browsing the web — THE WEB. The world wide web! You have access to information about ANYTHING! Let me say that again… ANYTHING! With that I can pretty much guess that you are able to read… you’re reading this aint ya. You’re breathing - double double bonus bonus. How much better can this get?!

Really? Okay so you didn’t get the grade you expected on ‘that’ test. Yea yea yea, you’re stuck in traffic again. Whop-di-doo. You and I are damn lucky to be able to have the chance to complain about this stuff. I’ve been beating myself up recently over somethings and wondering "What am I gonna do?! Ohhhh man!!!!" I think I know now. I’m going to take it as it comes and accept what is presented to me… I’m refering to the emotional stuff right now. I’ll make my way forward with my career - that just needs time.

As this book carries on tonight. I’m feeling much, MUCH better than last night. Thank you time! There is a certain someone that doesn’t like what I call them here in this journal. I’m sorry you don’t like your reference name, but that aninimity thing is kind of important to me regarding other people. You know how I feel. This has not changed. You know what I said and you know what that means. *S* <- meaning -> out

I saw shi-gatsu tonight and I must admit that I am in a very strange frame of mind. Can you say "WTF!?" I can, often too. I’m all sorts of in a mind funk. I just saw someone that messed me up emotionally for years and I was comfortable hanging out with her. I WAS COMFORTABLE!?! I could even throw in the word HAPPY and I wouldn’t be upset with myself.

Then I come home and I talk to ‘the end’ and I’m all sorts of messed up now. As one wheel turns another is stopped as the gears switch places. What the hell is going on?! Talk about one wild ride! I’ve never, neVer, NEVER seen a news scoop like this before. EXTRA! EXTRA! READ ALL ABOUT GP HAS A LIFE THAT’s ALL SORTS-A MESSED UP!!!! EXTRA! EXTRA!

Anyone up for a world tour? I could use the fresh air.

Please? Anyone? Please…….? Anyone there? Anyone………….? I guess I’m all alone in this mad place. Damn this hurts. Pulling and twisting. Up and down. I’ll just leave it alone… my emotions that is. I’ll just leave them alone and figure ‘em out later. DAMN CHEMICALS. GAH.

Damn this hurts & tomorrow is ONLY Tuesday. UUUUGH! <- meaning -> out

[[[BZZT]]]"Thank you for flying air ‘Up & Down Allot, please depart to the rear of the vehicle BEFORE the vehicle comes to a complete stop. Thank you. Please fly again. [[[BZZT]]]. I will look back on yesterday and I will feel something that only a large minority of the world population have EVER experienced. I am now of the select few.

There is no true description except to put into perspective what I felt as I looked down at the ground from 13,500 feet. NONE! But, there is a saying that can help to grasp it… "sensory overload." Thank you Steve Rafferty (my tandum professional) for the wonderful experience. He’s jumped, GET THIS, over 7,000 times. Now boys and girls, I want you to think about this number - 7,000. He started in 1988. Let’s look at the numbers…

1 year = 365 days… check

13 Years = 4745 days… {gulp - wow} check

This means that he jumped over 538.461538(461538 - repeats) times PER YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you say new profession. Uh, holy fried ants Batman™, we’re gonna need another plate. DAMNNNN! You ARE the man Steve.

Okay, with my math done I feel the need to enjoy the day… this time on the ground. I’ll ellaborate more later.

I watched the video of me jumping again. I felt the jump again. I FELT the jump again. I am in awe of myself. I WILLINGLY stepped out of an airplane into, well, the air! WILLINGLY! I went through "industrial haze" spoiler: a cloud and I watched it and then I watched the ground from a vertical position. Then I watched it horizontally with the shoot out! Oh man it was wild. I am going again. OH YES! I am going again. I’ll be working on the video - getting it online that is. I’m well past my perky hour <- meaning -> out

Um… WOW! Anyone interested in joining me next time? Why you ask? Because I AM going again. It’s REAL late, so I do thump now. {THUMP} <- meaning -> out.

Hehehehehe…

Nuff, said. It’s late, I mean early. <- meaning -> out