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“TIRFCMF!” BT

Not only will I be graduating on May 23rd I “have been selected to be the graduate” commencement speaker.” Whoa! Who? Wha? How could this be? on April 25th I sent a 3 min speech, in all its draft glory, and thought “There are so many holes in this speech. There is no way this will be selected.”

I’m still thinking “No way?! No way. No way!”

I don’t consider myself a writer and will continue not considering myself a writer. That’s not my thing. I have other people in my life that do that - emma, BT, Marty, etc.

So. Instead of relaxing and reading two books - one nearing completion and the other completed - I’ll be working on a speech and doing my best to memorize it. HFCIT!? Holy uber unexpected. Truly a speechless moment. Nearly everyone says “You’ll be so comfortable up there!” to which I find myself saying “I’m terrified. This is completely different than acting. Completely different.”

While my experience on stage will help me public speaking is a game of its own. For those in attendance close enough to see me or those of you with binoculars I may sound and look calm, cool, and collected but know that I’ve been tense in my neck, shoulders, and have likely had a headache for a few days.

I can say all this even though commencement isn’t for 10 days. Why? The moment I read “congratulations” I felt my muscles tighten. What does that mean? It tells me I have an abundant amount of energy and emotion at the ready.

If Ed Sherin were here he’d ask me “How do you feel?” I’d say “Terrified.” (with a smile). He’d ask “How does that feel?” “Good. No. Great. I feel great!” My feelings won’t control me but I’m not going to attempt a burial. Why would I do that?! Jimminy!

Ganbarimasu! (I’ll do my best!)

acronym assistance help time:
hfcit - how freakin cool is that
tirfcmf - that is really freakin cool my friend

Last night while going through my ‘relax, relax, relax it’s time to go to sleep’ ritual I had a thought about the word - family.

It may have been because emma and I have been speaking about the future a tad lately and the thought stuck somehow. Within a few minutes I heard my idea fill the darkened bedroom. I hadn’t fallen asleep and succumbed to to sleep talking. No, no, no. My voice was silent but my brain juices flowed on.

The ritual was put on the side burner and I had enjoyed a short laugh chuckle within my skull. Family. Why had I thought - I have a family of my own now - emma, Cthulhu, and Magneto. They’re not able to communicate and I don’t feel for them in any way like any other family member but they are a part of the fam. Baffling.

Sure, sure it’s simple to most people that have had animals in their lives but for me they are the first two animals I helped raise. It’s been over 1.5 years that they’ve lived here with us. At night, they sleep by my side, leaning against a foot or a leg. It’s, well, it’s wonderful.

It will be a number of years before another human is a part of the 11o1 crew so I’m going to enjoy the family as it is. </sentimental>

On a different family related note - BT relayed some boom to the moon news about Remembering Hypatia earlier this eve. Omedeto tomodachi. Omdedeto! I can’t wait to see what the papers have to say in 24 hours. Hoo-ha! HFCIT!