I feel like I’m off the ride! AND because of that and a call to me mudda, I did something that is DAMN gutsy! Holy wow. I had to talk to someone before I did it. It’s not good, it’s actually really risky and she agreed with me.

Then again it really isn’t because of my mind set, but it has the chance of being a big time downer or a nice relaxing ahhh-ing. I have no idea. HAHAHAHAHAH! I think that’s what is so wildly exciting about it. IT, like in the book A Wrinkle in Time. IT, as in Information Technology. IT, as in what I did! BWAAHAHAHAHA!

06-10-2004 08:11 pm

The Immortality Institute (http://www.imminst.org/) has invited BT to participate in a chat about his Cover Story Article - The Future of Immortality.

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I’ve realized that a radio wave is the best visual I could give someone to describe my present state of being. Why? Well, today proved it to me. I hit an AMAZING LOW today by missing a ball that just CRIED out to be slammed. I missed! Whiffff! Casey at the bat. Steeeeeerike one and two. It was THAT bad.

Moments later I hit a ball so hard and so well that I was commended by someone that is the definition of consistent. His face said it all… = O Followed by a “Wow. That was the best hit you’ve ever had.”

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Can’t control myself! At work… the same thing. At home… repeat. If I go out… GRUMBLE GRUMBLE GRUUUUMBLE! YIMMMINY! Something inside me is stirring and I’m not sure what it is.

Job = All good
Social life = It works
Sleep = Not a problem
Health = Oh yea, pfff, easy-easy-easy

So what is it… I can’t say I have an answer damn it! It’s very frustrating though. I feel like I’m listening to a discussion to bulldozer a house even though it won’t exist in a few minutes anyway thanks to a interstellar highway.

I do, fortunately, feel ABLE to write about it now though. Over the past week or two every time I’ve gone out I’ve been up AND down within extremes. WTF! What was I turning into? An emotional wheel? Fah-that! I feel good. Rather, I feel better. I feel able and I think, ME willing, I feel able. = D

06-10-2004 02:41 am